Where is my personal life?

Sitting all alone in the room my mind caught up with some thoughts and I have been forced by my mind to ask one question to my self. The question which has no answer, The question which always hurts the person who is living far away from his/her family and friends. “Where is my personal life?”

I just asked this question to myself and surprisingly I don’t have any answer to that at the point of time. I realized what my personal life is and found it is just four walls around me, a laptop and a TV nothing else. Just realized that life becomes a machine, a machine which works for 10-12 hours (in office), need some fuel to work (lunch and dinner) and rest in the night (sleeping at room). My cell phone rings and I am busy with the meeting with client or boss or with some other team member. I can not speak to the person from whom I learn how to speak. For boss I am just like a machine which can be replaced any time if it isn’t efficient or it isn’t affordable.

Looking back to the life I was enjoying every moment of my life with my friends and relatives and now I rarely find time to speak to them. I was getting lot of holidays and vacations which are more than sufficient to enjoy life and now I am not getting one holiday to give rest to my body. Time is passing like the desert sand pass from the hand and I am loosing my personal life with the same speed. Sometimes back I was enjoying each and every occasion in my life whether it is marriage, engagement or festival. Now when I look in to the past I found I haven’t attended any marriages or occasions since last 3-4 years and due to which I am loosing my friends.

Everyone is busy; I found one difference in life to look at calendar. Sometimes back when I get invitation of marriage or any other occasion I look at the calendar to see how far that occasion is and now I am looking at the calendar to see whether it is Saturday, Sunday or any holiday so that I can manage my schedule and think to attend the occasion but after scheduling or managing I am not sure if I am able to attend that as I am unsure about leave and workload at that time. I am not feeling well, I need to go to doctor but I don’t have time to visit doctor because I am busy. I can’t even give much time to my own health and nobody even cares for that.

If some relative or friend calls me my first reply is ‘Hey would you mind if I can call you in some time/ in 5 minutes?’ and that 5 minutes or sometime last more than a day depending on the workload. Life is calculator, everything must be calculated and with the time limit. We need to provide ETA for everything in life but we are unsure about the ETA of life, when it ends. It could end at any point of time, you never know about it.

It seems professional life has taken over personal life. Everyone becoming professional and professionalism is looks like a disease which is covering a lot of ground in the world.

I have given money back to my college friends as he has bought ticket for me and he replied thanks. I said ‘Man I am giving your money back to you, I should say thanks why you are telling me thanks’ he replied ‘Arey yar, aadat ho gayi hai ye professional life me Thanks, your welcome and many other words.’

By looking at this I am confused whether I should thankful to god or not for not giving me any girlfriend else I would have lost her because of this professional life or I can say machine life… J

So friends just look at the life and start enjoying it. Time is running at its highest speed nowadays and you will never find time to enjoy life. Just ask this question to yourself and figure out what to do for giving best answer to that question, otherwise your heart will ask the question ‘Where is your personal life?’ and you will not have any answer to it.

Keep smiling, Keep rocking and enjoy the life!!